I have been having a hard time lately with juggling everything. Getting ready for Josey, living life in general, and blogging do not always go hand-in-hand, and I have found blogging gets bottom billing in priorities.
I don’t know if I mentioned this, but I have a journal that I use to write letters to JoJo. When she’s older, I plan to give her all the letters. I don’t know if that will be when she’s 18, when she’s graduating from college, when she gets married, or when she is pregnant with a baby of her own.
But someday, she can look back and know what thoughts went through her mom’s 26-year-old brain while she was growing inside me.
The letter I left her today was a bit more of a “here’s what I’ve got going on before you get here.” I feel like I’m running around like a chicken with it’s head cut off one day, and falling asleep for an unplanned, two-hour nap the next.
I guess I feel that way because I am doing that. But unplanned naps make my urgency to get things done that much more intense.
And no one ever seems to talk about how nuts life is BEFORE kids. Just after.
Well, I’m keeping it real, and I’ll tell you something I wrote to her. Even though I get the “yeah right, stupid” look from others every time I say this, I feel like when she arrives, I will get to relax. Not forever, but just for a couple weeks, at least.
Yes, there will be a baby to care for, even in the middle of the night. Guess what? I wake up at least twice a night now anyway. I hear it’s God’s way of preparing you for waking up in the middle of the night to nurse and change diapers. I don’t doubt I’ll be tired, but I know I can do it.
And yes, there will always be meals to cook, a house to clean, laundry to do (and more of it), and groceries to buy. There will be a baby thrown into it all.
But as a former nanny, I can say that at least I’ll be home. She’ll be at my house. I can get stuff done because I’ll be here to do it- my laundry, my meal prepping, my house-cleaning. When I was a nanny, I took care of Will at his house, so I couldn’t get my laundry done while I played with him or sweep my house while he napped.
I think I’ll be more efficient as a mom than I was as a nanny because I’ll have the option of multi-tasking with my chores and caregiving. (Or maybe I’ll just spend all my time taking pictures of her….)
And Tom can watch her while I run errands, or I’ll just take her with me. I’ve done it before with other peoples’ kids, so why not my own?
But once she’s here, I won’t be preparing for her arrival anymore. Just like I was running around crazy until the day I got married, but once the wedding day was over, I got a week of chilling in Jamaica, I will run around crazy until the day I go into labor, and then I will come home and have my mom to help out for a week, and Tom’s mom to help for a week after that. Sounds great.
Here’s what’s going on, just this week:
*I’m removing hardware from her dresser (which I will convert to a changing table), filling holes with putty, sanding it all, and staining it. Then I plan to build a box for the top to hold her changing pad. I also need to pick out new knobs to replace the old hardware.
*Big shopping trip to Sam’s followed by preparing a bunch of small meals to freeze and pull out later to defrost/cook/eat.
*Baby shower with our sweet small group.
*Perinatologist appointment Thursday to have her kidney’s looked at. Should be our last sonogram before she arrives. She’s retaining a bit of fluid in her kidneys still, and we want to be sure she’s fine.
*Doctor’s appointment Friday (and every Friday until she is born).
*Working (still) on getting the smoke smell out of her rocker/ottoman (another blog post in itself!).
*3rd birthing class with our sweet friend, Bett. She is awesome.
*Post office run to return some stuff and to mail some books.
*Taking our nephew and nieces to Chic-Fil-A and to see the new Alvin and the Chipmunks movie (a movie at the theater was their Christmas present from us).
*Lunch date with my sweet friend, Jennie, who I don’t get to see often anymore.
*Tour of peditricians’ office to see if they are the practice we want to use for Josey.
*Set up cord-blood banking so they can go ahead and send us a kit for the hospital.
*Work on touching up nursery walls.
*Shop for mirror (still searching) and for shelves for nursery.
*Set up time to work with seamstress who offered to help me on cutting and laying out curtain fabric so my mom and I can sew it without messing it up.
That’s all I can think of off the top of my head. Most of those things are tied into the nursery and preparing for Josey’s arrival. So you can see why I would think some of my hectic day-to-day might have a chance to chill out for at least a couple weeks after she’s born.
Nursing? Changing diapers? Bring it on. I’m ready to meet my girl.
And if I blog less in the mean-time, you’ll know why.